I can't have done one of these last year because I was busy moving house or whatever, but I did in 2011, 2010, and 2009. Such tradition. Much ancient blog. So still on Livejournal after all these years. Wow.

1. What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?
Gained a 'tablet device' with 'apps' and stuff. Joined Pinterest. Tried glögg, julmust and lussebullar. Did a law course. Insulated my windows. Tried Irn Bru (noplease). Held a cat. Got sat on by a cat whilst on the toilet. Went to Norway. Slept on a boat. Got my hair cut off.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I stuck to my one from a couple of years ago about giving a certain amount to charity each month, and I think I'll keep it up.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No, although lots of trolleagues did. Something in 'the water'. Happy upshot was that lots of babies have come into work recently, meaning that I got to take them for walks round the office while humming The Internationale.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, despite my constant anxiety.

5. What countries did you visit?
Sweden, Denmark and Norway (the latter only for a few hours) and Scotland. Considered emigration to the Faroe Islands since they have a shortage of women to have babies, and I am a woman who would very much like a baby. Also went to Wales to see Lady TwoDots in April.

6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
A BAAAAAAABY! Well, kind of. I suppose it does not HAVE to be next year, but my broodiness levels have increased even more over the past year. I'd like to be 'sanity snack-free' this time next year, but we'll see how things go.

7. What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The merry trip to see Lady TwoDots in April, and when we got to go down A MINE in Blaenavon and it was really cool and we got to go to the miner's cafe and eat delicious food.
The trip to Swedenmarkway with Iona in May, when I got to frolic in a u-boat.
The ceilidh my parents held in July, when I was inexplicably persuaded to dance.
Being trolled by my family in August when they came up for a holiday in Northumberland.
Trying a strawberry I'd grown in my garden in September.
Emergency mental health appointments/being trolled by my brain in October.
Going to Tivoli at night and seeing it all lit up and pretty with little Rhian and Pelle.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting through the CBT course, which, I should point out, was BY PHONE. Can has therapy: yes. Can has therapy that doesn't terrify you: no.
Getting slightly better at getting help when I go mental.
Seeing a fair amount (although nowhere near enough!) of Northumberland, current adopted home.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Should've become obsessed with gardening in approx. April so I had stuff to actually harvest.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Trollbrain trolled me to the point of breakdown, once in April, and once rather more seriously in October. STILL I DOTH FIGHT. I was ill on the boat to Norway, which was annoying, and my wisdom tooth flared up a couple of times, as it is at the moment, meaning that my jaw appears to be slightly locked.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Possibly Thorleif the tablet. I heart the fact that I can update my various banal profiles across all the social media from my bed. I got some cheese in Blaenavon that had litch been stored in the mine to add flavour and it was DELICIOUS, to the extent that I'm considering ordering more online.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My mum, for not even minding when I accidentally wiped my nose on her after a casual chat while doing the dishes turned into me 'coming out' as a mentalist while weeping not inconsiderably. My trolleagues for tolerating me for 8 hours, 5 days a week, and occasionally more than that at weekends, which is enough to test the patience of a saint. My little chums.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
I wish all the October work-misery hadn't happened, although it's not the fault of any one person. It undid so much good work, both that I'd done and that therapist helping me had done. In September, I was looking at coming off medication, and suddenly one thing happens to shake my confidence, and boom, I'm on a higher dose till at least next spring.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, I suppose. I managed to save a reasonable amount this year, in stark constrast to last year when the cost of living in the poshest place in the universe meant I was spending nearly everything I earned. So I have a mortgage/baby/emigration fund.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Trolling off to Sweden twice, hurrah. My family coming to see me in August. Am really excited about going home in a couple of weeks.

16. What song will always remind you of 2013?
No idea. I've been listening to a song from 1987 by the Larks called 'Maggie' quite a lot lately, maybe that one.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? A bit happier. I guess at this precise point last year I was happy I'd escaped the salt mines of Buckinghamshire but obviously uncertain about how the year would pan out. I think it has been OK, so I am slightly happier.

b) thinner or fatter? Approx half a stone lighter, due to my 'diet'. It's taken me AGES to lose that, mind, and I've been 'relaxing' it of late due to unwillingness to log all my food and add up the calories. I am sure my will shall be renewed in January.

c) richer or poorer? A bit richer, lower cost of living up here having benefitted me greatly.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
GARDENING. Balcony gardening is fine but I don't think you can properly lose yourself in it unless you are properly surrounded by merry gardens. Visiting Edinburgh and Newcastle – went to each one a few times but neither of them are exactly far away, and there is much for me to discover.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being insane. Wandering aimlessly round Wilkos (they seem to have fewer bargains at this time of year so very often I am disappointed, although during the summer they had some truly EXCELLENT deals).

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
A standard family Christmas: it'll 'just' be me, 5 younger siblings, my parents and my nan on Christmas Day. A couple of days after that we'll go to Lancashire for the day to see my mum's family, so that'll be me, 5 siblings, 2 parents, 2 aunts, 2 uncles, 4 cousins and 2 grandparents. We tend to occupy a restaurant and eat pizza. I'll also be going for a meal with my Herefordian chums, which shall be nice. Lolz all the above makes me sound quite sociable. I'm not, I'll be hiding for most of it, reading about submarines.

22. Did you fall in love in 2013?
Please to note: no. My heart is a barren wastleland made of broken dreams etc.

23. How many one-night stands?
None as such, although my trolleague Alastair remains convinced that I operate a webcam service from my house.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
I loved watching HBO series The Vikings, because it was about Vikings. Game of Thrones was also pretty excellent.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I HATE NO HUMANS, ONLY THE CAPITALIST SYSTEM.

26. What was the best book you read?
On the way to Denmark a couple of weeks ago I read Burial Rites, which was all about the last people to be executed in Iceland. Which sounds a bit miserable, but it was a really good book. Also read The Noonday Demon: an Atlas of Depression. Understandably, that one really was a bit miserable, although actually it wasn't because it sparked off a couple of eureka moments in my brain and changed the way I saw stuff a bit. O also I read 50 Shades of Grey, which is now counted among the worst books I have ever read.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I'm developed a bizarre fondness for that 'My Chemical Romance' the kids keep talking about. Also 'Cradle of Filth'. I cannot work out which subculture this puts me in. Am I an emo? I'd make a fairly good emo tbf.

28. What did you want and get?
A NEXUS 7! I had to save up for a few months, but that's not the greatest hardship.

29. What did you want and not get?
A promotion, LOL. Driving lessons, although I am hoping to sort this out in 'the new year'.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Errmmmm I am not sure. We went to see Roman Holiday back in February, and although it's not the kind of film I'd usually choose to watch, it pleasantly surprised me. Also saw Spirit of '45, a nice socialist documentary by Ken Loach, and the Alan Partidge film, which made me weep with laughter.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was at home, but my mum didn't really want to do anything to celebrate it, I hadn't made any alternative plans, so just spent the day feeling all 'meh' and annoyed that I'd come home and booked a holiday instead of going to work. Then I felt guilty and childish for thinking that, given that I had reached my quarter century.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A BAAAAAAABY. An allotment.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
Look at wardrobe. Sigh. Pick clothes at random. If they fit, keep them on. Hope for the best.

34. What kept you sane?
Citalopram 30mg, Propranolol 10mg, and gardening

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
MADS MIKKELSEN, WAY MORE ATTRACTIVE THAN HIS PESKY BROTHER EVEN IF RHIAN DOES NOT AGREE.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Labour laws with specific reference to how companies try and get rid of pregnant employees. Trade unionism, and the lamentable state of the Left in the UK.

37. Who did you miss?
My troll family and friends down in the West Midzzzzz. I've started to miss trolling Sweden too.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I have some nice new trolleagues at work. I fear I've met absolutely nobody else new, however. You can tell I live in a small town. I am starting to notice newcomers to my town simply because I do not recognise them.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013:
Get your head sorted sooner rather than later, because you don't get the time back. Also, maybe capitalism as at fault for my lamentable state, as much as my brain itself. Also I love surgery games that you can play on a tablet device, they are cool.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
As 'Cradle of Filth' so wisely put it:
I kill without scruple or silent regret
In haunts of the sinister lunar aspect
For I am the pleasure that comes from your pain
Tiny red miracles falling like… rain

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